Sometimes anorexia or bulimia is seen as a form of self harm and that is true as the eating disorder can often serve as a form of self punishment. The physical and mental side effects of restriction are painful and miserable. With food restriction comes life restriction and in turn isolation and misery. Eating disorders … Continue reading Self harm or self protection?
When you compare where you are at the moment in life to where you want to be in the future the space between the two can be quite big. The space can be discouraging and terrifying. The space may be filled with fears and self doubt.So how do we make the space between where we are and … Continue reading Let the space between where you are and where you want to be inspire you
One of my biggest fears during recovery was what will happen when I no longer have an eating disorder? Who will I be? What if I can't handle the expectations? What will happen when I reach a healthy weight? What if nothing changes and I'll be mentally still stuck in the eating disorder but look … Continue reading Accumulating positive emotions and building a life worth living
Even if eating disorders are not about attention and eating disorder sufferers may go to extreme lengths to hide symptoms and keep their struggles a secret for months or years it can feel as though an eating disorder is a part of your identity and it is the only thing about you that makes you … Continue reading Your eating disorder does not make you special
Hidden in plain sight, Looked upon, Their eyes filled with fright. Empty,that's what it was, No laughter,no joy. pain. playing the games, Deadly games. Exhausting,exhausting, That's what it was. Sinking,sinking, No vision,no feelings. Blind. Exhausting,exhausting, It still is. My hope sinks like stones, In a house not a home. No ambitions,no dreams, Numb. But … Continue reading
Something I think to keep in mind is that thoughts change all the time and feelings are only visitors. I often get stuck in black or white thinking or catastrophising.Something I am going to try to do is to be more mindful of this and to act less impulsively. Was the day really that bad? … Continue reading Positive reminders
So the past few days have felt pretty miserable and just a build of things today led me to seeking reassurance from stepping on the scales and I was horrified by the number I saw and all rational thinking went out the window and I kind of just lost it. There is so much self … Continue reading Distress tolerance skills