Control

I crave control Where everything is neatly in line Planned,predictable For then I’ll be fine. When I cannot foresee, I start to panic My heart races And thoughts turn manic. I claw with my nails Lines on my skin Searching for an inch of control From within. I look for control In numbers on scales …

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The challenges of being an athlete after having had an eating disorder

One of my biggest motivations to recover aside from for my parents and do go to university to study Nursing was to be able to run again.To run and exercise without being scared of fainting, without feeling guilty on days when I didn't, without being worried about the damage I was doing exercising in a …

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Stoping negative patterns of behaviour and abandoning all or nothing thinking.

I am definitely someone who thinks and acts in an all or nothing way...I am either extremely motivated and go for something 100% or I want to give up completely.A lot of the time If I make a mistake or something does not quite go to plan I think "oh it's ruined now,may as-well give …

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