Reclaiming running

Hi everyone, It has been so long since I have written, I guess I have been busy living life and I don’t really feel the need the blog as much as I used to. In general things are going so well at the moment, the last few weeks have been some of my most happiest …

Critical care Nursing Placement

I have just finished my two month Nursing placement in critical care, specifically an intensive recovery unit looking after patients who have had major surgeries.At first I was disappointed with my critical care allocation as I had hoped to be placed in ICU but I ended up really loving this placement and I am even …

Helping someone with mental health struggles

It is very difficult to know just how to support someone with mental health struggles.What works for one person may not work for another.Everyone copes in different ways but there are some general things I think you do to try and help.Arguably the most difficult part of seeing someone struggle is not knowing how to …

Track is Back!

Today was the first university track session of this academic year!I felt quite apprehensive about it,I was worried about injury flaring up and also fitness loss and I have only been swimming and cycling over the last five weeks to give my body a chance to heal. Turns out I did not need to worry!The …

When old coping mechanisms no longer work

Hi Everyone,   It has been a while!I am not sure what to write anymore really...So much of this blog was dedicated as a recovery diary and I just don’t really feel the need to write my thoughts out like I used to but at the same time I would like to keep the blog …

General life update!

Wow It has been a long time since I last posted!The last two weeks of my Nursing placement just completely took it out of me but I can now proudly say I have completed the first year of my Nursing degree and got a first overall for this year! My last placement was on a …

The problem is still

The problem was never my body, It was the thoughts in my head The voices not silenced they wanted me dead. So I made my body The canvas for pain, All the fears and doubts I could not contain. I made up my mind, I thought to be free I thought I would win this …

Understanding behaviours and thought patterns and where they come from

Hello Everyone! It feels like years since I have written! Life has been pretty busy and I don't really have the time or energy to write much. There is so much I would like to tell you all about, my week away in Lanzarote with the triathlon club, how my nursing degree and placement is …

Control

I crave control Where everything is neatly in line Planned,predictable For then I’ll be fine. When I cannot foresee, I start to panic My heart races And thoughts turn manic. I claw with my nails Lines on my skin Searching for an inch of control From within. I look for control In numbers on scales …

The challenges of being an athlete after having had an eating disorder

One of my biggest motivations to recover aside from for my parents and do go to university to study Nursing was to be able to run again.To run and exercise without being scared of fainting, without feeling guilty on days when I didn't, without being worried about the damage I was doing exercising in a …