Reclaiming running

Hi everyone, It has been so long since I have written, I guess I have been busy living life and I don’t really feel the need the blog as much as I used to. In general things are going so well at the moment, the last few weeks have been some of my most happiest …

Helping someone with mental health struggles

It is very difficult to know just how to support someone with mental health struggles.What works for one person may not work for another.Everyone copes in different ways but there are some general things I think you do to try and help.Arguably the most difficult part of seeing someone struggle is not knowing how to …

When old coping mechanisms no longer work

Hi Everyone,   It has been a while!I am not sure what to write anymore really...So much of this blog was dedicated as a recovery diary and I just don’t really feel the need to write my thoughts out like I used to but at the same time I would like to keep the blog …

Control

I crave control Where everything is neatly in line Planned,predictable For then I’ll be fine. When I cannot foresee, I start to panic My heart races And thoughts turn manic. I claw with my nails Lines on my skin Searching for an inch of control From within. I look for control In numbers on scales …

The challenges of being an athlete after having had an eating disorder

One of my biggest motivations to recover aside from for my parents and do go to university to study Nursing was to be able to run again.To run and exercise without being scared of fainting, without feeling guilty on days when I didn't, without being worried about the damage I was doing exercising in a …

Nursing and mental health update

I am home alone this evening and needed a distraction so thought since this blog is a bit of a diary for me I would do a bit of a update regarding University and health. Mentally and physically I am doing really well at the moment.I have not had a "low period" since probably about …

Stoping negative patterns of behaviour and abandoning all or nothing thinking.

I am definitely someone who thinks and acts in an all or nothing way...I am either extremely motivated and go for something 100% or I want to give up completely.A lot of the time If I make a mistake or something does not quite go to plan I think "oh it's ruined now,may as-well give …

Restoring running confidence and self belief

Self belief is vital,how many things have you put off doing or not done due to lacking the belief and confidence you can do it?When we are babies we are born into the world with no sense of failure or the belief that we can't do something but bit by bit life,situations,people tell you to …

The need for justification

Something Which I struggle with is the need to justify myself and seek reassurance from others a lot.Which is probably why I am super indecisive.I know seeking reassurance can sometimes get excessive and probably annoying to those around me but I need someone to tell me it is ok. I particularly find it hard especially …

The sadness that comes with letting go

I've written a bit before about the sadness that you sometimes feel when letting go of something despite it not being beneficial to you life wether than be a lover a addiction or a disorder it can be hard to let go and move on from something that has been so central to your life …